Character

An urgency that’s not mine plagues my mind.

Within my own skin his emotions flow.

My story you’ll tell, yours is left behind.

In the darkness I stumble, try to find

a pen and paper, a world I must show.

An urgency that’s not mine plagues my mind.

His journey affects me, with each new bind

he creates, an escape route I must sew.

My story you’ll tell, yours is left behind.

He grows, becomes strong while I stay behind

him, bent close towards the ground, remain low.

An urgency that’s not mine plagues my mind.

If I had control one day would I find

my own personality I could show?

My story you’ll tell, yours is left behind.

My creation, the story of my mind,

Do you see me as an ally or foe?

An urgency that’s not mine plagues my mind.

My story you’ll tell, yours is left behind.

Fly on your wall

I wish I could be a fly on the wall

and watch you, now you’re away from home.

A black smudge on flat paint, you’re not alone.

I will not be shooed out into the hall

with a weak promise that you’ll call.

My presence shown by the vibrating tone

of wings as I move through this space unknown

 to me. I fly out of your reach, waiting on the wall.

I can crawl in the corner of your eye

and impress my image so it won’t leave.

You can’t pack your things, walk away, assume

that I will let you go. Don’t say goodbye.

I followed you, I will make you believe

and see that I am the fly in your room.         

Phoenix

Feathers of fire claim my body

and shrivel into black ash

that longs to

catch on the wind.

A cry from my scorched

throat, never answered.

The scent of spring around me;

I smell only burnt flesh,

melting skin.

Evaporated tears can’t

heal me, it will only

take the pain

of others until my

life ends again.

Rebirth.

Bones knit together,

flesh emerges and

covers.

Colour has not

returned, that will

come back in time.

I am plucked and

soiled with soot.

Newly formed limbs

tremble and shuffle

in the centre of ashes.

It’s too heavy to push

aside, choking

away my breath

but unable to kill me.

Rise from the ashes they say.

Fairy Tale?

I’m not Rapunzel but my hair

is down to my ankles.

I’m in a tower but not high up.

There is no daylight to peer through,

no landscape to dream over.

An unhappy ending cannot

be shown to others.

I stare up at the walls,

a blood stained trail

 leading to my hands.

Broken fingernails.

Broken spirit.

Bodies are tossed in this

forgotten place, a corpse

pit for dreams that never

came true. They are left

to rot with me.

We’re below, left to

fade away. Forgotten

in the world of

fairy tales.

I’m waiting to be rescued,

just like in the stories.

I’m waiting here for you,

but my mind has already

gone.

Never Forgiven

My fingertips grow numb as warmth leaves my

body. My eyes acknowledge hateful stares

until a hovering vulture swoops, pries

them from the sockets. Each retina tears

under its merciless beak. Lies formed from

my tongue turn to insects, feasting, picking

away the fragile skin. My ears felt wrong

to hear laughter. Only the ticking

time of my cursed presence should be heard. So

I cut them off, letting blood flow and mess

up the earth’s floor. I am buried just low

enough to smell damp mud and rotting flesh.

The dead don’t feel, but I’m rotting alive.

For my sin, forgiveness can’t be revived.

Coastal Cafe

The scent of salt, always

in the air, makes me gag.

The seagulls’ screeches pierce through

my skull and the painkillers won’t stop it.

The one painting on the cream wall is

permanently tilted, the once proud

ship now sinking, but never

submerged. Never resting.

The strong smell of coffee mixes

with salt and clings to my clothes,

refusing to leave me.

He’s been dead two years, but

his red and white checkered apron

is still behind the counter, always

catching my eyes and drawing me in.

How I long to leave this place,

his café left to me, where only

the seagulls are free to

fly away.

Prison Walls

I am the walls that hold you,

a concrete presence that never

leaves. If you touch me I am

cold stone, smooth and unforgiving.

I will listen when others ignore.

You arrive, cold like me, fists clenched

and trembling, longing to rip off your

orange uniform.

I watch over you.

Rage, at times, consumes you,

your feet and fists pound

into me. The scent of sweat,

your heavy panting, is my

compensation for the

dent you cause.

They catch your eye,

these names carved into me.

Your fingers run over them and

pull back when fine dust coats your tips.

The experiences they could

have shared, the life stories

they could have told, were

given to me.

Your name is another scar.

Long after you’re gone I still carry it.

Prompt 7

I had only ever required one permit for myself, ten years ago on my father. My mother had died of cancer four years earlier, a painful process that made her wither slowly before my eyes. My father’s love for her had faded long before that, preferring short-term lust with young women. He had been in the pub woeing a future conquest as I sat in the hospice, watching my mother breathe for the last time.

            I wanted to run but I dreamed of justice instead. I went home and waited, informing the stumbling, drunk, waste of space his wife had died when he finally decided to return at six a.m. He paused a moment, then grunted and disappeared upstairs.

            Before my mother has been diagnosed I’d completed a beginner’s course at the local archery club. I was eighteen when she died, two weeks before starting my accounting course at the university. I joined their archery club immediately, starting an early part-time job setting up a bakery before my morning classes. For three years I worked, studied, practiced and saved my money.

            My graduation was a wonderful day spent celebrating with friends and starting a relationship. A beautiful woman named Claire, who had been experimenting between men and women for the last year, had been dancing around me for six months. My sexuality had never been a secret, but I wasn’t interested in people still exploring their preferences. Claire, however, was too much of a temptation, and a way to escape.

            Our relationship only lasted three months, but I spent two of those living in a shared house with her. My father merely grunted as I left, eyes never leaving the T.V. After Claire and I parted I found a different shared home, preferring to save as much money as possible. For a year I worked, attended archery practice in the evenings and tournaments at the weekend, improving my skills until I was winning trophies.

            On the fourth anniversary of my mother’s death I filed for the permit.

            Target: My father, Alan Phillips

            Justification: Was a terrible husband to his dying wife. Remains a terrible father, is wasting his late wife’s money and running her house into the ground.

            The woman at the desk nodded, stamping the form as approved.

            ‘Good luck. Remember, you only have 48 hours.’

            I gave her a cold smile, ‘I only need four.’

            My father was still sleeping off his latest drunken indulgence when I let myself in. I had my recurve bow in its case. I took my time assembling it, glancing occasionally at his bloated face, drool on his chin, the TV’s light reflecting on his red complexion.

            I didn’t bother waking him, didn’t bother with a speech. I was so close there was no way I could miss his heart. He died instantly. I felt no guilt, no satisfaction. I felt lighter, and relief.

            There was a number to call on the back of the form. In fourty-five minutes two men had shown up to remove the body and the chair stained with blood. All that was left was blood on the carpet and an invoice.

            The paperwork afterwards was a lot more exhausting then the murder. Eventually I was transferred the ownership of the house and its mortgage. My hard-earned savings secured a manageable billing situation, as well as enough to redecorate the entire house.

            For six years I was happy. I had relationships that ended, but none bad enough to need a permit. I never wanted to kill anyone else.

            Until…

            ‘I just didn’t think it would be that hard!’ Claire sobbed as I handed her another tissue, ‘He’s such a prick, and the stuff he’s done to me…but I just couldn’t do it. And now my permit has run out.’

            Claire had run through her experimental stage and married a bitter newsagents owner five years ago. They had a beautiful daughter, Lara.

            ‘He doesn’t do this sort of thing to Lara, does he?’ I asked, waving at the burn mark on her arm.

            Claire gave a bitter laugh, ‘Trust me, if he’d ever even hinted about doing this to her, I wouldn’t have waited to get a permit before killing him.’

            ‘Does he still come home after work and sit on the outside decking for a drink?’

            ‘Yes, he stays out of the way until dinner’s ready.’

            ‘And you’re still good friends with your neighbour, right? The single mum with her own business?’

            ‘…Yes.’ Claire said, frowning. ‘Why?’

            ‘I’ll kill him for you. You just need to make sure Lara is staying somewhere else, and your neighbour lets me use her upstairs window.’

            So three days later, on a Friday, I took a half-day off work and took my form to the Legal Murder Office.

            Target: Tom Hill

            Justification: Physically abusing his wife Claire Hill, my friend.

            It was quickly approved and I made my way to Claire’s neighbour’s house, walking instead of driving in case Tom recognised my car. Carrying my big bow case was awkward but years of archery had given me strong arm muscles.

            Claire’s neighbour Susan was waiting with a buffet of food and the kettle ready to boil.

            ‘I thought we could celebrate, you know, after. I hate that bastard.’

            I set up my bow upstairs and chatted for two hours with Susan as we waited. Eventually Tom opened the back door and settled into his favourite chair. The angle was a little awkward, I had to shoot him in the back three times through his chair before he stopped moving. I waited five minutes, looking for any twitches, before calling the number on the back of the form.

            Susan watched with me as the men took the body away.

            ‘You’re pretty good at this,’ She remarked, matter of fact. ‘I don’t suppose you’d be interested in killing my old business partner? She conned me out of a lot of money.’

            I watched as Claire stared at where her husband had died, crying. Were they tears of relief or grief? I wasn’t sure.

            ‘Why not? This is started to feel fun.’

Grandmother Wolf

She lives in the forest for a reason,

away from accusing eyes or

fear-induced politeness.

Deer see the full moon, realise

they can’t outrun her.

Her old bones creak, shift,

grind against each other as

they move beneath her skin.

Their outline is visible in her

shoulders, poking, stretching

but never breaking through;

hidden when thick, dark fur

sprouts, hard as bristles.

The blue-flower dress rips under

pressure, impossible to sew back together.

The bonnet remains on her head.

Wrinkles on her face melt away

under hair, smooth out over her sensitive

snout. Her gums bleed as the teeth grow longer,

sharper, cutting the inside of her mouth.

Her clumsy claws grasp the teapot,

cradle it, but can’t stop it

slipping, smashing on the floor.

Her bloodlust is encouraged

by the crumpled letter in the fire:

‘A sacrifice will be sent, so please spare our village’.

A howl tears her throat.

She’s in bed when the knock

comes. A child in red.

Oh Grandma, what

sad eyes you have.

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