19:14
A trickle of warmth
scampering through
dead limbs,
reigniting feeling
and bringing
pain to life.
(Not much today, got an annoying cold that’s stopping my brain working).
Fiction and poetry writing, recapturing the muse.
19:14
A trickle of warmth
scampering through
dead limbs,
reigniting feeling
and bringing
pain to life.
(Not much today, got an annoying cold that’s stopping my brain working).
19:4
Descending into the
pit of despair,
sharp-edged rocks
encasing the walls,
digging into flesh
and tasting
life.
19:5
Self-inflicted
isolation
haunted her
steps, year
after year.
19:6
Misery produced
illumination,
revealing the
truth of nature.
19:7
Happiness and joy
plagued by
guilt of the
sacrifice needed
for such
emotions.
19:8
Frozen with
rejection
19:9
Reaching out across
time,
hoping there’s still
a connection.
Is there enough?
Or will it be
severed and
forgotten?
19:10
…the connection
to the person
I once was.
When dreams
were possible
and I was
blissfully naïve.
19:11
Twitching skin
itching and restricting,
longing to claw
off and escape
into the
sky.
19:12
How does it
feel to be
human?
I’m beginning to
forget.
19:13
Choking to reach
the freedom of
movement,
to walk amongst
the crisp air
and breathe
peace into
your lungs.
A sigh and
contented smile
from nature,
to be part of
everything and
not trapped
behind
closed doors.
19:1
Half-gloved fingers
clutch at the pen,
attempting to breathe
warmth onto the
frostbitten page.
(another one, or maybe part of the same one)
19:2
Stone-cold heart
of the house
refusing to
ignite.
(and one for the start of the Primal King Moogle from Final Fantasy XIV)
19:3
Holding the rope that
lead them to
safety,
unable to
follow,
unable to
let go.
Been a hectic day (broken boiler, leaking roof, all the fun of being a homeowner) so haven’t got much today. Just the start of a poem I scribbled at work:
Eternal rest
upon a lonely cliff,
overlooking all who
live on without
you.
If there are any Final Fantasy XIV players here, it’s based all a certain character in the Heavensward story (I won’t say more to avoid spoilers). I’m hoping to do one for King Moogle Mog Primal soon, because I always thought his backstory was so sad and tragic. Might not be a lot tomorrow either because need to travel to the in-laws and borrow their shower after the night shift. I imagine they’ll be a poem about cold, cold fingers and dying, cracked houses soon.
Pressing loneliness of
isolation,
all the more heavy
with its second capture.
Happiness is here,
but despair still lingers,
ready to snatch you
and choke away
your peace.
Pounding trap
returns, banging
shut a coffin
only you can feel.
Tears flow with
no reason, drowning
all positivity you
know exists
beyond the cloud.
Can you smile
at tomorrow?
Or will the absence
of today rob all
return?
Left outside, shunned
and forgotten, is a
sphere-shaped walrus,
a globe spinning with
no control.
Rain trickles down its
smooth surface,
cold stinging skin,
liquid watering eyes,
as stumpy arms
fail to thwart it.
Lights from inside
reflect on its skin,
a warmth so close
but unfelt.
A man stands out
of reach, watching
the walrus being
pushed back and
forth between Gaia
and Terra. Its
eyes plead to him
for rescue.
The man watches,
unblinking, and
simply shakes
his head.
I wrote this short story over ten years ago and found it recently. It’s so random but for some reason I still want to expand it or reform it somehow.
Dragon’s Eye
The field was beyond the fierce glow of the high sun, but I knew it was there. I could picture it in my mind but only with blurred detail. Every day I went there,
yet every night I forgot the clear smells or sounds I would find.
And so I travel again.
Someone like me should not be spending time this way, but I do. And each time I go the detail always astounds me.
It is nearing autumn season but the landscape still looks as beautiful as spring. The added colours often seen as dull only cause the green to be more appreciated in the field. Many go there, many like me; hopeless dreamers.
This field is a haven for beautiful life, be it flowers, animals or even hopeful young maidens dreaming of romance. We are all drawn here.
But the field is not the only reason, only a certain area of it.
At first I would think it a dull area to explore for no green grew here. The soil was hard, as though fighting the very elements to defy being admirable. This hard soil is strong in scent, smelling damp even when never wet.
The area will always be enchanting as such, for what lies within its centre affects the very earth beneath it. Those around it.
The statue is anything but ordinary, crafted from stone which refuses to erode by times command. No one knows how long it’s been here, only that it will never fade. Its form is that of a dragon, one looking fierce and long in a stance similar to a cat when under threat. Its face was one which would always shock you at first sight. Gazing into your very soul.
It was much more than what it appeared. Within its left eye a glimmer could be seen, one that you could miss if you were to blink. But once seen it could not be missed, there was something alive there, something much more than a fierce statue.
I peer closer at the eye so my nose is touching its own. I can see the glimmer again. And I learn its true form.
There’s a very small sun, it couldn’t be anything else. And as strange as this discovery sounds I do not question it, I have no doubt.
I touch the eye and it glimmers again, burning my finger. Yet I don’t pull away, I loosen it into my hand and look closely while it burns me. It’s the colour of a black pearl, yet heat pours from it which makes me think red, orange or yellow would describe it better. Fire; dragon’s breath captured in its eye.
Again I don’t question this strange idea but drop the eye onto the hard soil, shattering it to tiny fragments. The ground here as hard concrete, not as easily enthralled by the eye’s beauty as others.
I pick up a simple fragment and gaze at its inner colour, beyond the black gleam of the armour outing. Yellow; like fire. Like the sun.
It does not burn my hand again, it remains cold, defeated. Destroyed by a curious human who wished to gaze at its beauty more clearly.
And I know the detail I see now I will forget during the night hours. But I also know that by the next day the eye will be restored, back in position with its easily missed glimmer.
For this statue is untouched by time and its fine detail will remain. No matter what.
A few months ago I saw this round animal video on youtube and loved it. Then sometime afterwards I had a dream that I was a round walrus, outside in my back garden in the rain with two English bulldogs called Terra and Gaia (they weren’t round). My husband was inside saying ‘No you can’t come in, you’re a walrus!’ while the two dogs pushed me around like a giant beachball.
I have no idea why but I really want to write about this dream in a poem, I just can’t figure out how yet.
She refused to marry the sorcerer
and so he cursed her household.
Time couldn’t touch it, but
neither could they be seen, just
ghostly whispers haunting the
dark corridors.
She was transformed into a
beast, left for all visitors to see.
‘Until someone says they love you,
to that face, you will remain
ugly.’
Time passed, men came,
longing to woo the mysterious
woman under the cloak.
Her hospitality legendary,
allowing weary travellers
to enter, eat, sleep in
her house. Their every
desire is granted.
As host she was polite,
her conversation enticing, but
sweet. Her voice was deep,
husky, something they thought
they couldn’t resist.
During the night they would
come into her room, creep to
the end of the bed, then crawl
towards her, hands
clawing the thin covers back
to caress her legs.
Hairy legs.
Struck dumb, they would
squeak in surprise as her
deep voice rumbled,
‘Do you love me? Could you?’
They galloped away before
they ever saw her face.
This cycle continued
year after year, until
the beast stopped counting,
stopped hoping.
She grew used to talking
to invisible slaves, howling at
the moon, and even began
spraying the trees.
Her territory.
She had one tree wrapped around
a tree, the urine
trickling down her skin,
missing the bark.
The instructions are simple,
she will be waiting in the tower,
grateful for the company (any
company), ready to give herself
to you.
Call to her from the bottom,
she will transform her maiden
hair into a ladder, for the
chance of ending her isolation.
That desperation will blind her
from the pain as you tug and
pull yourself up.
She’s a lady, so dandruff won’t
be an issue, but expect mild
complaints of migraines and faintness.
After all, her prince has
just arrived.
Compliment her looks, coo in
sympathy at her plight, then
offer bodily comfort.
She won’t resist for long, and
if she does, she never really means
no, why would she?
We assume you need no instructions
of what to do once her legs are open
to you. You are a man after all.
…
(Need more here)
…
Follow these instructions and
you are guaranteed a Princess Wife.
For only five years of blindness
you’ll be remembered as a hero,
the one who conquered the
tower.