Scribbled Thoughts

Mixed emotions

swirl and battle,

shifting your outlook

from helpful to grim,

content to helpless,

loving to exhausted.

Return to the longing

and false hope

you had finally

managed to escape,

but happiness was brief

and the process

begins again,

heart battered

but not broken enough

to stop.

Yet.

Shock of arrival

to inspect your worth

and proclaim

if you pass as human

or if you need

to study

and observe

before trying again.

Click to add quantity

and stumble on destination,

the task of replacing

growing harder

and only you

seem to care.

Trance of darkness,

a moment of stillness

to shut out

the overwhelming light,

hoping sometime away

will help

you remember

the right adjustment.

Plaided moments

make up your plans,

measuring your capabilities

through luck

and desperation.

Carve my popularity

into a rock,

its nature unchanging

except when it’s

defiled

by the surroundings,

causing it to shrink

and blend

into dirt.

The end of peace

enabled through movement

and sound,

its story complete,

leaving you alone

to find another

or remain stuck

in the moment.

Discover at a distance

so it’s not marked,

your mind confused later

when you find it anew

but see it familiar

and you question

what else

fails to be

a surprise.

Rise from scalding

and swipe away

the breeze

that offers relief,

too scared

of what healing

will bring.