Scribbled Thoughts

Harmless banter

grates on shredded ego,

sensitive nerves

snapping with accusations

and teased pressure.

Step back,

walk away,

before the hurt

becomes bigger.

Calculate a peace of mind

and work hard to achieve it,

adding more variables,

uncovering more formulas

and watching the end answer

remaining out of reach

forever.

Subtract the presence

but don’t tell the waiting,

watching them anticipate help

that will never arrive,

seeing them realise

it was never

planning to

arrive.

Take away essential time

and replace it with space

you can fill as luxury,

but always a looming

stress in the background,

reminding you of what’s to come

and why you should

be busy

right now.

Listen to the demands

after they withdrew

and wonder why

they still expect

when they are

so ready

and willing

to discard

when it was convenient.

Pull away security

for the week

with an apology

but a firm tug,

leaving them reeling

and sick

until reason

forces you to withdraw,

a cautious and resentful

truce

now in its place.

Risk everything

and be betrayed

by one you stood by

and fought for.

Watch his murderer

stand as the righteous

and gloating to the crowd

of his true nature

as he slits your throat.

And still they cheer

and love him.

Rip out your metal heart

to shout truth

into the living microphone,

declaring who you are

and the justice you will deliver

while its beat stops

and everything ends.

Change your ways

with a goal that makes it easy

and surprise yourself

how no nostalgia lingers

for the ways of before,

too focused on the future ahead,

growing closer each day.

Anticipate the sickness

and panic at it’s absence,

watch your eating,

breathe deeply

and gain a purpose

to be better.