Scribbled Thoughts

Hoard the rare

but watch

the one you share it with

freely give it away,

ignoring the pain endured

to achieve it,

yet expecting you

to repeat the process

over and over

while they benefit

from other people’s gratitude.

Built in expectations

drive you to perfection,

hard work done

but already mess has appeared,

ignored by others

who deem it beneath them,

only noticing for annoyance

you have yet to

expel their imperfections.

Frustrate to cleanliness,

scrub and scrub

as resentment simmers ,

anger filling the space

while everything else

becomes more beautiful,

you are left with perfection

but only have tired defeat

as a reward.

A few days of indulgence,

relaxing,

forgetting,

ends with renewed chaos

for consuming,

owning,

filling a hole

someone might notice

if you stop

for a moment more.

Remember a world

created and waiting,

buried in a notebook

that hopes to widen,

if only you could

understand how

to unlock

what once was so easy

to unleash.

Present the new

and intrigue destruction,

adding to the debris

of childhood

and moving forward,

closer,

to appreciation

of the materialistic.

Christmas breakfast

for those who spend

too many early hours

together,

a work bond of necessity

that grew into genuine like,

toast their health and happiness,

praying it will

bring some for you too,

a longer permanent place

amongst the flour coated

atmosphere.

A limb moves

while the owner sleeps,

another presence

testing their will

in a foreign body,

opening eyes

to gaze at another’s life

and slowly plan

how to make it theirs.

A presence frosts

in their mind,

slowly creeping

and freezing previous memories,

coating them with

crystal moments

that melt to spread

in the crooks

of their personality,

drowning any beneath

without even corpses

to float to the surface.

A spark of flame

releases heat

and a dying wish,

evaporating into the air

but clinging onto

the intake of breath,

entering a life

and settling,

waiting

to take over.

(Still brewing The Matchstick Girl idea. I think I have a basic concept now, just not a lot of time to focus on it yet, hence the little extracts instead.)