Scribbled Thoughts

Cut away the weight

and offer opportunities

of a different perspective,

one where you have confidence

and believe you are worth

the air you breathe.

Excrete life and energy

to please others

who don’t even realise,

too busy with their own doubts

to acknowledge their

connection to yours.

Retrace to familiar

and sigh at the steady ground

hoping its confidence

will seep into your body

and drive your path

to a future of happiness,

or at least somewhere

you can be your true self.

Smell the sea

between toes,

sliding back to the vast

while peace is left behind,

a deep breath of salt

that settles

and reinvents

all that you could be.

Prep the fun

between the jobs

and watch the innocent

frollick,

remember how that used

to feel.

Experience childhood again.

Punish those who seek

out respite

with more action and stress,

laugh at their panic

before they disappear,

then later ponder

why you never

see them again.

At least you had your fun.

Approach and offer

to ease anxiety

but deplete earnings,

the decision of what

is needed more

doesn’t take long

to be concluded.

Continue the story

of years ago,

one thought forgotten

but now revealing

a renewed life,

ready to share

its secrets.

Retreat higher up

and curl into digression,

hoping for a moment

to forget the turmoil

and pretend

simpler times and emotions

are your only concern.

Confusing limbo,

second guessing all the signs

and intuition,

praying for a different outcome

but trying not to hope

so if life is still just normal

you don’t forget

to appreciate all you have,

which is still more than some.

Deep breath,

smile and carry on.