Scribbled Thoughts

23:18

It’s a clingy relationship

you can’t shake off,

the mucus coating

your insides and

spilling out, but

still clogging your breathing

preventing any relief,

any end,

any sense

of being normal again.

23:17

Push, slide, hit hit hit,

mash, glide, quick quick quick.

Up, down, wriggle and back,

slip to the side and avoid the attack.

23:16

Rub me like sandpaper

and scrape away my layers

to soothe out yourself.

Strip everything that

protects me to polish

the perfection that

you present.

I am left naked, raw,

good for nothing

but to be discarded

and forgotten

Update

I’m currently suffering with the flu so no writing today. I’m hoping to get something out for tomorrow but if not I’ll post a quick rambling thought/ update instead.

23:15

He notices and compliments

another with an achievement

you’re desperately trying

to reach,

but he does not turn

and acknowledge you.

That’s how you know

your delusion of progress.

Nothing has changed for you.

23:14

Return to your life

after a long absence

you couldn’t prevent,

and witness how

unneeded you really were.

Resent those who

stepped into your place

and crush everything

they are, whether

you should or not.

Because what else

is there left for you?

23:13

Neutral monotone

of endless repetition.

23:12

Parties have emotional lives of their own,

happy, loving…jealous, dark.

They influence the attendees

and plunge them into moods

they may not want to explore,

lust, guilt, shame, desperation.

Some may even change them

forever.

23:11

Stress-citment.

23:10

Have to keep moving

or the ground planks

will sink.