Scribbled Thoughts

A moment

is all it takes

for everything

to leave,

for you to become

unrecognisable

but unable to go back,

unable to change

your fate.

The past of pain

whispers in your present,

and you decide

not to hide anymore.

Coax it into

a louder volume

and squash it down

so it can

never hurt you

again.

Did you remember

the feeling

of childhood dreams,

burned long ago

with your changing body?

Can’t you rekindle

a different flame,

and reclaim

those goals

of reaching

the stars?

Decide

not to wait

and take action

now the moment

has been dangled before you.

Moving

is better

then giving up.

Stand up

and walk forward.

Change the plan

so rushing

is all that’s left.

Does it make

the anticipation worse?

Or will you be relieved

it all ends

sooner?

Remember an idol

that drove you

on your path

with an image

not real,

but created

a better role model

for those

who now look up

to you.

They restricted you

for too long

and you operated

on will alone,

now you can flesh out,

build muscle,

show them the

strength laid beneath,

ready to be shown.

Detach my limbs

that have no feeling,

dead long ago

with my innocence

and trust.

Do the new ones

fit better?

Do I have a choice?

Make the decision

to trust again,

dispersing an anger

that kept you alive

but not living,

it’s time to embrace

the happy.