List essentials
then cut it in half
and still function
as normal.
Repeat over time,
the allotted needs fewer,
any joy gone,
until even breathing
is a debatable luxury.
Now,
list reasons
you are alive
and remember
it is worth it.
25:115
Restrict access
to the task
they demand completed,
watching you struggle,
and panic
with an amused smile
that will only fade
when the impossible
hasn’t been done.
How dare you.
25:114
Unexpected relief
still not denting
as much as you need,
the extra list
not written off,
halved but not gone,
looser but
not loose enough.
25:113
Waiting for a ring
to signify the connection,
the reassurance
a month of hoping has stretched
and tested,
doubting all and worrying the end.
Still we’re waiting.
Still.
25:112
Revive and wait
for life to move again,
hoping the trigger
won’t have to be you,
but resigned to be
the catalyst
while lazy tadpoles
swim in the aftermath.
25:111
Frustration pours out
on the unexpecting,
also waiting in limbo
but with more confidence,
while you have waited too long
and all enthusiasm
and hope has dissolved
into bitterness
and a deep, deep
tiredness.
25:110
Childhood of silence
follows the adult,
awkward pauses
judged by the confident,
and stable minds
unable to translate
the damaged.
Reach out for a heal
and hope someone appears
who will understand
and care enough
to help.
25:109
A moment of calm,
working with rightness
to recentre your mind
and know you love your world,
even when it gets hard
you wouldn’t change your path,
and that is a powerful,
wonderful feeling.
25:108
Confirmed as overlooked,
again,
but this time the smile of dismissal
won’t come,
this time the drive
to do your best
will not emerge
to make everyone else’s life easier.
Instead step back
and breathe deep
as they realise this change
is staying,
and they caused it.
25:107
Content mood
shattered by a photo
of destruction,
a precious object tarnished,
borrowed and in need of returning,
showing your incompetence
to be trusted
with guarded knowledge
from ignorant teeth.
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