Scribbled Thoughts

Observe and advise

with an expertise

never touched

but allowed to preach,

causing doubt

in the learned

even though

their knowledge is real.

The power of confidence

can end the world.

Surprise initiation

removes the mask of indifference

to glimpse the true motivation

hidden over years,

a kindness no one noticed

even as it enveloped them.

Now it is here,

concealed but recognisable

and waiting

for the moment

it can return forever.

Shut away grief

and conjure a solution

through denial,

watch it smile

and reassure

while you slowly

slip further from reality

and avoid

the growing cracks

in your vision.

Completing an end

you’ve already witnessed

but with all the pieces

made clear

now you hold the board.

Love what others hate

and don’t be ashamed.

Anticipate and disappoint,

a cycle hard to break.

Should you fake happiness

or be honest?

Which one would hurt less?

Which one would be

the easier way out?

Vital ingredient forgotten

and one moment to decide

for a reroute

or a quick turn,

hoping enough fuel

remains for either.

Aftermath of euphoria

drafts a dull sheet

over everyday tasks,

expectations of the extraordinary

trickling disappointment

into small acts of kindness,

no matter how much they cost

another.

A year of anticipation

bubbles forward

into expectation and joy,

a day of freedom

to be normal

and enjoy the core

of the real you.

Prayers of the everlasting hopefuls,

convinced efforts are rewarded

and failing over and over again

until history can be rewritten.

Pounding vocals

throb against words,

silencing thoughts

and sinking shadows

deeper into darkness

until nothing remembers

what breathing was like.