Scribbled Thoughts

Entanglement of the lost

delving deeper into overgrown

and witnessing scenes

no other have seen,

but too panicked to marvel

at the knowledge,

only desperate

to get out.

Dirty boots

seek the wet

to coat more slime

and hide the coat of innocence,

once the undeniable feature

of the monster beneath.

Release it all in music

bare your being

and stand vulnerable,

waiting for judgement,

waiting for the answer,

and watch as they respond with tears

pulling you in for comfort

and releasing you into

a brighter future.

Tremors of sound

signal a promise of protection,

form a sphere

to envelop your soul

and bounce off vibrations

to strengthen  your resolve.

I am here, always,

to begin the song.

Confirm a schedule

but change it on a whim,

expecting others to comply

without complaint

and continue smiling,

bending even if

their back is broken.

Gentle trot to my run,

taking in the sights

and appreciating the breeze,

while I struggle to breathe

and gulp down water

to keep going.

Suffocating presence

of the past

has finally been cleansed,

the memories no longer hurt

and you notice the kindness

hidden in them,

longing to reach out

and embrace it,

thank it

and let them know

you’re okay now.

Change your name

to escape their shadow,

but still the light is blocked

with dark thoughts

where they won’t leave

and you can’t ignore them.

Refuse my defences

and watch the consequences

of cut flesh,

flowing blood

and the end of trust

and security.

Screech for attention

so all work stops,

heads turn

to acknowledge your demand

while those near sigh

with weary acceptance,

ready to ruin a rhythm

and change to

your direction.