Scribbled Thoughts

Take photos

for evidence

of a struggle

you ignored

until it was

too late to help,

but now blame

the survivor

for not coping

alone.

Are you proud?

Restock the minimum

and once again

I wonder

why I try so hard,

filling everything

and depleting myself

to be rewarded

with no afterthought

by any,

not even

a negative one.

Tip it forward

to slot support behind.

Are you ready

to measure

and customise?

Or is a template

needed?

Last push

towards freedom

and a day

of exhaustion

on your own terms.

Discover

a secret longing

buried for years

but always waiting

to understand you.

Can you

accept it?

Offer my soul,

it’s all I have left

to prove

you are worth more

then any form

of eternity.

Message my clearance

so the next stage

can begin.

Let me understand

how to reach out

so I can settle into

moving forward.

Calculate

for the lacking

and be surprised

when more is presented,

providing room to

breathe

and shut your eyes,

letting the darkness

comfort you.

Postpone

dropping positivity

into the evidence

of the year.

Why do you hesitate?

Is the positive

that hard to

celebrate now?

Slice further

then intended

and splatter crimson

on a cloth of failure,

ending the day

on medicore

and a week of freedom

on half-complete.