Scribbled Thoughts

Knock my energy

and scald my freedom,

forcing a strip

of security for thinner

protection, so raw flesh

won’t rub and

end all movement.

Unexpected gift

dissolving one insecurity,

gaze at its defence

and sigh with relief,

one problem resolved

in a river of anxiety,

but even that small drop

has saved the day

from despair.

Thieving wings

swoop and scoop

away a sugared prize,

leaving behind

confusion and respect.

Check the order

and rearrange

for late arrivals,

or perhaps they were

always there,

just overlooked

until their presence

became a bother.

Spy from miles away,

wondering why you don’t rise,

what brought such exhaustion

and why I can’t be there

to sleep beside you.

You looked comfortable

all alone,

so you must be happy

and not desperately

hoping someone will approach

to include you

and acknowledge

that you are needed,

even just a little.

Cut to spread,

covering more ground

with less cushioning

and hoping no one

notices the difference.

Organise time

and predict others’ needs,

stand-by for action

and pause your reaction.

Sculpture your personality

to please strangers,

then shut down your functions

as you’re forgotten,

too unmemorable

to be cared for.

Try to slow your mind

to decipher what’s real,

but how do you escape yourself

enough to know

who you really are now,

and if you ever were

you at all.

One touch

to melt all barriers

and shutdown

the stress of today,

postponing

it until tomorrow.