Essential tool
absent again,
carelessly left for another
to claim,
drain its battery
and hold hostage.
Fruitless searching
to unearth a dead replacement
while everyone else
pretends not to notice.
24:9
Hesitate to connect
from the looming shadow
of inevitable departure,
stay instead in neutral limbo,
feelings safe,
unused,
never fully realised
but never fully endangered.
It’s okay to protect yourself
sometimes.
24:8
One sentence of venom
to destroy all self-worth,
even when it’s wrong
even when you know that,
it still shatters all progress
and sinks you into doubt.
Too tired to be angry,
too defeated to fight back.
24:7
Seeping your motivation
with a lump presence
that saps all intention
and ruins a streak of activity.
Wait for action
you know isn’t coming,
always hopeful this time
will be different
and it won’t be down to you
for a spark to ignite
on wet rock.
24:6
Waiting to be met
and elicit fascination
as someone discovers
who you are
and why it’s worth
knowing you
in this world
of endless people.
Hold on,
they are coming,
they have to be.
24:5
Pick up exhaustion,
the only option left,
and wonder where
the excitement went
as energies deplete
and everyone grumbles
though the day.
Last month seems so
far away.
24:4
Shadow of my life
always present
always felt,
tuck into the unseen
and reveal a shock
to upturn all.
Time to rethink everything,
time to reshape my world.
24:3
Unearth forgotten scribbles
and plots faded with time,
discover ideas once alive
ready to spark from attention.
Consider, push motivation,
focus on a path and navigate,
reach its end and unlock
an old world,
share it like its new.
Remember who it made you.
24:2
Once you’ve known love
and know what it is to love
you can never forget,
never go back.
Even if you lose it,
even if you’re alone
it will stay there
to comfort or mock
to warm or drown,
to end or begin.
24:1
Rain cleanses
the world of the year,
rinsing away
stains and achievements,
ready for a blank canvas.
Ready to start anew
or carry on a familiar life.
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